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lucetilogs2012-03-11 09:30 am
eyesofstrength) wrote in lucetilogs2012-03-11 09:30 am
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Who: Leonhardt and Joshua Bright and later Dr. Willock and potentially Estelle Bright
What: Character death and the depressing reactions to it
When: March 11th, afternoon and going into evening
Where: Starting in the plaza and ending in the clinic
Summary: Ever since his return, Leonhardt had been acting rather strangely and hiding things and unfortunately he's far too stubborn and distrustful to seek out the help he needs to prevent this from happening in the first place.
Rating: PG-13 for death, warning for Leonhardt's suicidal tendencies and spoilers
[It had been a week since Leonhardt returned to Luceti and found himself alive again, though not quite well either physically or emotionally. It was a shock to find himself alive and back in Luceti after making such effort to ensure he would die in his own world because of his reckless actions that it sent him spiraling into depression and still wanting to die. Unfortunately, while the Malnosso were able to put back together his broken body as it had been before, it would seem one of the numerous wounds he sustained in the explosion of the barrier got infected likely some time after he arrived here.
He had definitely not been well when he returned, and though it at first appeared as if he had gotten better, it was more that he was better able to hide his symptoms except for the fact that he was acting far more withdrawn than normal. And for someone like him, that's downright not sociable in the least bit. As the week progressed he started going downhill more and more as the infection continued to spread in his body and get worse and his chances for survival grew more and more slim, and he was fine with that. He had never been convinced that death in Luceti was temporary and felt that he no longer deserved to be among the living.
Of course it was something Joshua would not accept, and neither would Estelle. Joshua had been on his case to go to one of the clinics and he had been dodging that subject because he didn't want to go. So instead he lied and said he had gone and was told to get rest and plenty of fluids and check back with the doctor in a few days.
And that was what brought Leonhardt out today to the plaza. He was being forced to go back and check in, though honestly the moment he was outside he forgot about that entirely. It was a pretty day out, and the warm didn't bother him, it actually felt good with how chilled he felt. Instead he decided to head over to the memory garden to see if the flowers had begun to bloom yet. Even if they hadn't, he wanted to be close to Karin. Unfortunately, in his weakened state he could only make it to the fountain before he couldn't handle the lightheadedness any longer and needed to sit before he passed out. So he decided to find a nice spot in the sun to rest for a bit.]
[ooc: And if you guys want a separate thread or threads for reactions after he dies to skip ahead there, that's fine. PM me if you need any info for that.]
What: Character death and the depressing reactions to it
When: March 11th, afternoon and going into evening
Where: Starting in the plaza and ending in the clinic
Summary: Ever since his return, Leonhardt had been acting rather strangely and hiding things and unfortunately he's far too stubborn and distrustful to seek out the help he needs to prevent this from happening in the first place.
Rating: PG-13 for death, warning for Leonhardt's suicidal tendencies and spoilers
[It had been a week since Leonhardt returned to Luceti and found himself alive again, though not quite well either physically or emotionally. It was a shock to find himself alive and back in Luceti after making such effort to ensure he would die in his own world because of his reckless actions that it sent him spiraling into depression and still wanting to die. Unfortunately, while the Malnosso were able to put back together his broken body as it had been before, it would seem one of the numerous wounds he sustained in the explosion of the barrier got infected likely some time after he arrived here.
He had definitely not been well when he returned, and though it at first appeared as if he had gotten better, it was more that he was better able to hide his symptoms except for the fact that he was acting far more withdrawn than normal. And for someone like him, that's downright not sociable in the least bit. As the week progressed he started going downhill more and more as the infection continued to spread in his body and get worse and his chances for survival grew more and more slim, and he was fine with that. He had never been convinced that death in Luceti was temporary and felt that he no longer deserved to be among the living.
Of course it was something Joshua would not accept, and neither would Estelle. Joshua had been on his case to go to one of the clinics and he had been dodging that subject because he didn't want to go. So instead he lied and said he had gone and was told to get rest and plenty of fluids and check back with the doctor in a few days.
And that was what brought Leonhardt out today to the plaza. He was being forced to go back and check in, though honestly the moment he was outside he forgot about that entirely. It was a pretty day out, and the warm didn't bother him, it actually felt good with how chilled he felt. Instead he decided to head over to the memory garden to see if the flowers had begun to bloom yet. Even if they hadn't, he wanted to be close to Karin. Unfortunately, in his weakened state he could only make it to the fountain before he couldn't handle the lightheadedness any longer and needed to sit before he passed out. So he decided to find a nice spot in the sun to rest for a bit.]
[ooc: And if you guys want a separate thread or threads for reactions after he dies to skip ahead there, that's fine. PM me if you need any info for that.]
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And in response to Joshua, Leonhardt just says nothing again. He doesn't even react much as Joshua tries to pull him to his feet. Joshua will definitely be able to tell his skin feels rather cool and clammy to the touch, which is also definitely strange, especially with it being a very warm day.
But the worst of it is that once Leonhardt is standing, he loses consciousness right away. Thankfully since Joshua was helping him up, he'll only fall onto Joshua and not onto the ground and potentially get hurt. It's a good thing the clinic isn't too far away considering that Leonhardt is much larger than Joshua.]
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Thankfully, Joshua's reflexes are fast enough that he manages to catch Leonhardt when he loses consciousness. The last thing they need right is to waste time needlessly because of that resulting in both of them landing on the ground. Considering that the one thing he thought was just a risk just happened - much earlier than he was expecting, no less - they definitely need the aid of a doctor, and quickly.
It's a good thing that the clinic is so close nearby, all things considered. Carrying Leonhardt there shouldn't be too troublesome, the initial difficulty of figuring out how to carry him so as to not aggravate his condition even further aside while still getting around the issue of him being taller than the boy aside. For once, Joshua can't help but to feel a little thankful for the fact that this is less difficult for him than it would probably be for most people his age.
And admittedly, carrying him like this is faster than trying to help him walk there would have been. It's a small silver living to an otherwise alarming situation. It's not going to take very long to reach the clinic, and once there, Joshua is quick to look for someone who might be able to help.
...Hopefully there is actually someone around who can be of help. Considering injuries aren't the problem, healing magic probably wouldn't be of much help this time...]
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Syncope and cyanosis--classic signs of heart failure. Shoot. He makes his way rapidly over to Joshua, pointing to a nearby room.]
Take him in there. [And he bolts in ahead of him, lugging out an oxygen tank and grabbing some IV bags from the cabinets. He's got to work fast.]
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Willock won't have to tell Joshua where to go twice - while he's a bit slower due to still carrying Leonhardt, he actually manages to follow him at a rather quick pace despite that. All the while, however, he keeps quiet; unless Willock actually addresses him, he likely won't say anything until he can put his brother down again. First things first, after all.]
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How long has he been like this? Did the symptoms come on suddenly? Does he have any underlying conditions, allergies..?
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His tone, though, is far too detached - too flat and matter-of-factly - for the current situation, as if he were trying to keep his emotions from seeping into his voice right now.]
He lost consciousness a few minutes ago. He doesn't have any allergies or health conditions [as far as he's aware, anyway], but... [Symptoms... there were a lot of those.]
...The symptoms were gradual. He arrived a week ago with some faded injuries. And since then, he's been more avoidant than he usually is, and he's been sleeping more. During the last few days, he's been less observant, and he was having trouble standing for long and concentrating. [That last one's a bit of a guess, but considering he didn't notice him using the Body-Split Craft even once when he normally uses it pretty often, it's very likely.]
He was having trouble catching his breath after walking from Community Building 3 to the plaza earlier. His hands were shaking and turning blue when he stopped to rest, and he barely noticed me... and when he did, he sounded exhausted.
[ ... ] He passed out when I tried to help him get up. And considering the weather, his skin felt too cold and clammy.
[That's everything Joshua managed to notice since he came back. Considering how avoidant Leonhardt was being, though, it's not impossible that there's other symptoms he was hiding, or that just ended up going unnoticed. But hopefully that's enough to figure out what's wrong.]
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He lays a hand on Leonhardt's forehead, then dons the stethoscope draped about his shoulders and listens briefly to Leonhardt's heart. There's no perceptible fever and his pulse is weak, but Willock can tell it's fast. Septic shock, he decides. Which makes this situation very grim indeed.
He looks up at Joshua.]
Go find one of the other volunteers--tell them I need some of the IV antibiotics. Streptomycin, Terramycin, Choloromycetin--whatever's in there. And epinephrine. The bottled preparation.
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The problem is the look in his eyes right now, it's not his normal troubled look, or even the tired look he has had this past week. Joshua may well recognize it, the the same look he has in battle. The one that Estelle described as being on fire, but also very cold. It's definitely a bad sign because he's lost enough of his mental ability to keep himself calm and now the aggressive nature that would be normal for him if he wasn't able to keep that at bay is all that remains. The only good thing is that he's far too weak to do any real harm to another, because he could be very dangerous like this.
But it's not like he wants to do another harm, no he wants to die and does not welcome any attempts at saving his miserable life when he's supposed to be dead. There's no use protecting him, he's already dead and shouldn't be here now and he does not welcome a return to his endless misery. If only he could say this, but between the shortness of breath and the oxygen mask, he's not going to be able to express this wish. Instead the arm without the IV in it will make a quick movement to try and remove the needle. It's still a pretty quick movement compared to a human, but rather slow for Leonhardt and easily stopped, but it is showing that something is going to need to be done to deal with the patient not wanting to cooperate.]
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All ri--
[Before he can actually finish those two words and head off to retrieve everything, however, Joshua notices Leonhardt's eyes opening - and more importantly than that, notices the familiar look he's displaying. That's... not good. That's the look he normally has in battle or during missions. And he was already barely aware of his surroundings earlier, so considering his surroundings right now are a fairly drastic change from before he passed out... Is it possible that he has the wrong idea about what's happening?
Either way, while him regaining consciousness is something Joshua would normally see as a good thing, that look makes it far more alarming than anything else.]
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Well. So much for just going to retrieve everything. Time for plan B.]
Calm down, Loewe. It'll be all right. [His tone is more reassuring than detached this time, but he's not about to let go of his wrist. Not until he really does calm down. If he exhausts himself too much right now, or hinders his treatment like he tried to just now, then that can only make things worse, can't it?
Amidst all that, Willock might be able to notice something else for a moment: if he glances in the direction of the room's door, he might catch sight of someone walking out of the room rather quickly, even though nobody else should be around - with the individual in question, if he notices them fast enough, looking just about identical to Joshua. If he doesn't, he'll likely still hear the sound of steps, at least.
...Joshua has no idea if this is actually going to work as well as he hopes, considering he's never tried using the Body-Split Craft to make use of a shadow outside of his training so far and he still can't maintain it for very long, but he doesn't want to leave the room with Leonhardt behaving the way he just did. This way, he can at least try to fetch everything using the lookalike shadow temporarily created with that craft, so long as he doesn't lose his concentration. It's a bit of a gamble, but it's likely better than leaving the room himself or not retrieving what they need.]
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Having Leonhardt wake is a good sign--though, like everything else about this situation, not terribly promising. Willock catches the sound of footsteps in the hall, but doesn't look in time; his gaze instead settles on Joshua, who appears to have forgotten what he asked him earlier.]
I need those medications right now. Go find someone.
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He's not going to be too successful since he is still damnably weak, though for him weak is still above average for a normal human since his normal is beyond what most humans can do.]
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I know. But I-- [Before he can finish that sentence, he notices Leonhardt grabbing his wrist. He wasn't actually going to leave despite his attempt to move away a little, but... well, from his point of view, that just further cements what he was about to say.]
...I don't think I can leave right now. [Not until Leonhardt calms down a bit.]
But it shouldn't take much longer to bring everything here. [Even if he's not actually making any attempt to leave the room, making that statement sound somewhat like nonsense at first. He can't really gather the medication if he's still here in the room, can he?
His words are truthful despite that, however; it's not long before footsteps can be heard again, followed by Joshua's shadow returning with the requested medication. That... probably looks a bit strange, given the shadow is essentially a duplicate of the boy, but once Willock takes the medication from it, it vanishes again as quickly as it had appeared earlier - something that may just make it easy to guess that it was just the temporary result of some sort of ability.]
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All right, hold on. [And he turns and makes his way quickly to the doorway, heading determinedly up the hall, prepared to accost the first person he sees. When he runs into the body double, he stares in surprise, looking from it back to the room.]
How did you--?
[He takes the cocktail of antibiotics and the bottle of epinephrine, and his mouth about drops open when the false Joshua vanishes. He can't even begin to imagine how the boy created such a thing--nor does he have the time to right now, honestly. After a moment or two of sheer astonishment, he turns on his heel and walks back into the room, setting the epinephrine bottle on the counter and hooking the bag of antibiotics up to the tubing of the IV line.
There. He stands by, watching Leonhardt restlessly for a moment, then fetches one of the portable EKG machines. He's still not quite used to the little paperless ones, but he should probably be monitoring Leonhardt's heart continuously at this stage. He steps over to him, pulling up his shirt to place the electrodes.]
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Once Willock pulls up Leonhardt's shirt a bit a few more symptoms that he had become evident. For one, there is a rash that looks like it had started to develop around his left leg and has spread up towards his chest. That definitely wasn't there a week ago when he returned.
That and a decent number of silver and violet feathers flutter towards the ground. Definitely more than what would be normal for someone to lose. He also starts shivering again even though the clinic isn't cold.]
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That rash... I don't remember seeing it before. [His tone is calm, but if Willock notices his expression, it should make it clear that this actually worries him. Was Leonhardt hiding something this entire time? He definitely didn't see a rash of any sort back when he arrived, so either it hadn't advanced as much and wasn't visible at the time, or it only surfaced later in the week... and either way, the fact he was never told about it is concerning.
More unconsciously than anything else, he lowers the arm Leonhardt is still gripping onto the edge of the bed, placing his remaining hand on his brother's, as if to attempt to reassure him that he's not about to leave if he can avoid it without actually saying so out loud. Staying is the least he can do right now seeing as he can't provide much help, isn't it? Outside of relying on that craft - something he'll probably have to explain later at this rate - to retrieve things, there really isn't that much else he can do right now.]
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Looks to me like he's bleeding out beneath the skin. If his blood vessels are collapsing... [He moves to undo Leonhardt's pants and get a better look at his leg. If that idea is correct, the rash is probably even worse further down due to the way the blood would pool.]
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If one looks on the back of his leg, there is a place where his leg is bandaged up because there was one nasty looking gash that wasn't healing because it got infected. He did try to do something about it, but unfortunately it was already pretty bad when he got here and it was hard to really look at it and see just how bad it was. Definitely shows he was hiding things and should have sought treatment sooner, even if there was a high chance anything attempted wouldn't have worked anyway.
Leonhardt himself is just remaining nonresponsive since he's pretty much given up on impeding treatment. So far he doesn't seem to be getting any better or worse really.]
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But he refrains from commenting specifically on that; instead, he turns to Willock after a moment, his tone still calm, but also laced with a distinct hint of worry that he can't quite seem to keep out of his voice anymore.]
...Is there anything else I can do to help? [Even if he's planning on staying next to Leonhardt, he can probably still manage to use the Body-Split craft one or two more times to assist if he can. If not... maybe he should at least try to contact Estelle using the journal. It couldn't hurt to let her know what's going on, right?]
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There should be some dressings and antiseptic up in one of those cabinets. You can bring those down. [What Leonhardt really needs is surgical debridement--possibly even amputation--but Willock wouldn't dare sending him into surgery in this state. At the very least, he can try and improve the appearance of the wound while he waits to see if the antibiotics will kick in. He isn't feeling very hopeful about that 'if.'
And he should let Joshua know, however indirectly. He looks back at the boy, his commanding tone softening to something more gentle.]
If he has any other family here, you should probably try to get ahold of them.
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And at that last statement to Joshua, there is truly no reaction from Leonhardt and he still seems to be somewhat aware of his surroundings. Of course that likely just shows he chose to let it get this advanced.]
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The meaning behind Willock's words isn't lost on Joshua, however. And perhaps it's because of this that his reaction is rather brief this time; a small nod in acknowledgment followed by two simple words, spoken both rather quietly and in a tone that's entirely too flat.]
... All right.
[Following that, he takes a moment to focus before making use of the Body-Split craft again, this time letting the shadow fade into existence in plain sight. As it goes to retrieve the requested items, Joshua himself moves his hand away from Leonhardt's in order to take out out his journal and use it to write a short message to Estelle, his handwriting messier than it would normally be. Once finished, he'll tuck the journal away again, letting his hand rest on Leonhardt's own again when that's done with as well.
...Hopefully it won't take her all that long to notice the message.]
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He dabs and wipes at the edges of the wound with antiseptic, then spreads a fresh dressing over it. He glances briefly at Leonhardt's face to see if he's showing any kind of pain--if he's going to remain conscious for much longer, Willock should probably give him a few injections of morphine, in spite of his shallow breathing. He turns his eyes to the EKG, wondering if he can risk stepping out to send someone out for the painkiller. He shouldn't make any more requests of Joshua, knowing what he knows now.
Leonhardt's heart rate is weak, but the rhythmic beeping isn't slowing, so he quickly washes his hands and gestures to Joshua to stay put.]
One second. I'm going to find some morphine.
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Joshua, however, will notice that Leonhardt's grip loosens as his arm goes limp. He's lost consciousness again, but everything else shows he's still alive, for now at least. It's honestly pretty doubtful he's going to wake up again, especially if given a high enough dose of morphine that it actually does anything.]
[ooc: just a quick note, Misa asked that we go and skip ahead at least til Estelle shows up to speed things up a bit more.]
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And for that something to be happening at the clinic, well.
Her eyes widen at the sight of Leonhardt on the bed. He looks horrible! She quickly crosses the room to him and Joshua and the doctor, looking between them with concern. Her very first thought is that something must have attacked him, but that doesn't seem right.]
What happened?!
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